For You |12:43 AM

I met someone recently.

He is as ordinary a guy as you can ever meet.
You will probably not even take notice if he passed by you on the street.
But today he showed me something really interesting.
Before I share what he showed me, I shall describe him to you.
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He loves music in general.
He enjoys being around music, all the time.
He owns many original cds.
Far more than he can afford or rather far more than what you THINK he SHOULD be spending on them.
He is willing to save on cab fare and basic necessities, but splurges on music, food, apparel and tech toys.
He enjoys singing, regardless of whether he sounds good or not.
He deeply wishes he had a musical talent.

He hates his current company and work.
He hates it for the politics, the concept of a superior race and the extremely ridiculous business decisions that the incompetent managers make everyday.
He has made up his mind on clocking the hours and leaving when something comes by.
He smiles and says some things that he knows he has to, to get certain things done
And sometimes he hates that he does that, because many times that is so not true.
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Well, that’s it.
He showed me, “me”.
He showed me who I have become and who I was.
He made me think very hard about my current life.
Does listening to advice = doing what is advised?
Does doing what is advised = learning = adapting = growing up?
Does growing up = losing yourself = losing what you are = losing what you really want?

How many times have you heard in your life
“Huh? You are still doing XXX? You should be doing YYY”
“So ridiculous / so expensive / so nonsensical, stop doing XXX!”
“You should XXX, YYY. Its good for you.”
How many times have you compromised to fit in?
How many times have you given in to demands that you really don’t wish to?

For me.
Too many.

I have drifted so far from what I planned, what I wished for, what I think I want and what I think I need that I don’t even realise it anymore.
I keep giving in to demands to change, to grow up, to keep up, to whatever that I don’t know who I am anymore.

One has to live up to his choices.

Wishing I can be me sometimes.
Where I can be truly selfish and think only about me.
Where I still actually know who I am and what I want.

It actually feels so laughable that I need someone to show me/ remind me who I used to be.

I start singing
Yeah I was singing
This song
For you

Music : Celine Dion – Song for you
moo.
Daneo.

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